i really regret riding kenneth's bike without license....i'm not blaming kenneth for that, but myself.... i really hope that the officer would let us off this time round... if i really get charged with an offence, i'll drag kenneth along because the bike belongs to him.... i'll be fucking guilty for this....it's a big mistake i thought i'd never make. just a minute of curiousity. i hope he's not angry with me, although he should be.
i'm concerned and worried about his license being taken away and the amount of fine we will have to pay....
i've never been this worried in my life....it's driving me crazy at the thought of this incident. but still i've got to face it. i'll take one step at a time and take whatever comes my way.
from the bottom my heart, i'm truly sorry.
i died. 5:38 pm
Sunday, June 24, 2007
these few weeks were pretty messy for me....so many things happening in my life and things around me just changed without me knowing why.... work was screwed up especially....i did have some fun with friends doing stupid things...
i died. 2:25 pm
Thursday, June 14, 2007
i went to MOS for a party on 12th june Frolic....it was quite fun... i enjoyed it pretty much.... after that i went to meet Kenric....i felt happy for him as his Probation was finally over....after such a long time.... we went to Marina south to meet his friends and chill out for a while..... then we walked our way out of marina south on the road at 4am to 6 plus in the morning.... the whole stretch of road belonged to us.... Kenric got disturb badly by his female friend which was quite daring and funny...... we did stupid and funny stuffs..... i told kenric and his friend that it has been quite some time since i roamed the streets late in the night with such a big group having fun and laughter.... it's really relaxing......i really wannt to do that again if i can....
congratulations Kenric on your ending of probation...
i died. 11:03 pm
damn it my friend damaged my skate scooter...... it's my birthday present from my mum.... irresponsible, still told me that it was my fault to lend him a old scooter..... Fuck Fuck Fuck......
i died. 10:20 pm
i went to this underage party at PLAY club... i did not went in after i heard that it was a lesbian and gay night.... i did not wanted to be mistaken as a gay.....but i did in the end... i decided to wait outside the club for my friends since i had nothing to do... i sat on a flight of stairs and there was this girl who kinda attracted me... she was sitting beside me with her group of friends... she knew i was looking at her and she offered me a drink she was holding on to... i was kinda shocked and i didn't knew what to say....i abruptly said no it's ok, thanks.... i regretted...i should have accepted it.... after a couple of times she had walked past me i had a urge to ask for her number, but knowing the fact that i do not have to courage to do so stopped me... so i decided to ask my buddy for help, and she did, she approached her for her number but she insisted on seeing my face first... when she came with my buddy i was once again shocked.... the good thing was that she gave me her contact..... and yeah i am still messaging her.....
thanks to my buddy....
i died. 10:15 pm
here's a list of things and events that are really driving me insane and adding on to my truckload of stress
-forced to take up a subject i do not want for final year project thanks to my teacher and a piece of fucking paper -screwed up friends i have -fucked up school mates -work -school work -projects -money -finding my 1st girlfriend -my buddy -troubles entering Polytechnic next year
this list will get longer, i'm sure it will.....
i died. 10:03 pm
i've not been blogging for quite some time..... ...i'm not myself lately and i don't know why exactly, i guess its the people around me, school, friends and other random things that just appear out of nowhere....
i really just want to be myself....but i can't...the people i hang out with wants to make me feel inferior and treats me like i'm nothing and don't matter at all.....i hate it but i don't suppose i'll do anything about it so soon, but i know if i'm going to do anything, i will really go MIA......
what hurts the most is this.....i introduced my buddy into my circle of friends and soon...she treat them better than me.... i'm really shocked.....but i can't be bothered with it anymore....it's her choice and i can't do anything about it....
i'm starting to realise the people i know are pretty much FUCKED up..... things they do,say and the way they behave towards me....
